[Verse 1] ~#**************#~ Drownin in the Blue Nile ~#**************#~ He sent me “Downtown Lights” ~#**************#~ I hadnt heard it in a while ~#**************#~ My boredoms bone-deep ~#**************#~ This cage was once just fine ~#**************#~ Am I allowed to cry? ~#**************#~ I dream of crackin locks ~#**************#~ Throwin my life to the wolves or the ocean rocks ~#**************#~ Crashin into him tonight, hes a paradox ~#**************#~ Im seeing visions ~#**************#~ Am I bad or mad or wise? ~#**************#~ [Chorus] ~#**************#~ What if hes written “mine” on my upper thigh only in my mind? ~#**************#~ One slip and fallin back into the hedge maze ~#**************#~ Oh, what a way to die ~#**************#~ I keep recalling things we never did ~#**************#~ Messy top-lip kiss, how I long for our trysts ~#**************#~ Without ever touchin his skin ~#**************#~ How can I be guilty as sin? ~#**************#~ [Verse 2] ~#**************#~ I keep these longings lockеd ~#**************#~ In lowercase, inside a vault ~#**************#~ Somеone told me, “Theres no such thing as bad thoughts ~#**************#~ Only your actions talk” ~#**************#~ These fatal fantasies ~#**************#~ Giving way to labored breath, takin all of me ~#**************#~ Weve already done it in my head ~#**************#~ If its make-believe ~#**************#~ Why does it feel like a vow well both uphold somehow? ~#**************#~ [Chorus] ~#**************#~ What if hes written “mine” on my upper thigh only in my mind? ~#**************#~ One slip and fallin back into the hedge maze ~#**************#~ Oh, what a way to die ~#**************#~ My bed sheets are ablaze ~#**************#~ Ive screamed his name ~#**************#~ Buildin up like waves crashin over my grave ~#**************#~ Without ever touchin his skin ~#**************#~ How can I be guilty as sin? ~#**************#~ [Bridge] ~#**************#~ What if I roll the stone away? ~#**************#~ Theyre gonna crucify me anyway ~#**************#~ What if the way you hold me is actually whats holy? ~#**************#~ If long-suffering propriety is what they want from me ~#**************#~ They dont know how youve haunted me so stunningly ~#**************#~ I choose you and me religiously ~#**************#~ [Chorus] ~#**************#~ What if hes written “mine” on my upper thigh only in my mind? ~#**************#~ One slip and fallin back into the hedge maze ~#**************#~ Oh, what a way to die ~#**************#~ I keep recalling things we never did ~#**************#~ Messy top-lip kiss, how I long for our trysts ~#**************#~ Without ever touchin his skin ~#**************#~ How can I be guilty as sin? ~#**************#~ [Outro] ~#**************#~ He sent me “Downtown Lights” ~#**************#~ I hadnt heard it in a while ~#**************#~ Am I allowed to cry?