[Verse 1]
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When I look back, tracing fingertips over plastic bags
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Thinking, “I wish I could extrapolate some small intention
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Or maybe just get your attention for a minute or two”
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[Verse 2]
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Will I die? Or will I get to that ten-year mark?
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Where I beat the extinction of telomeres?
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And if I do, will you be there with me, Father, Sister, Brother?
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[Verse 3]
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Charlie, stop smoking
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Caroline, will you be with me?
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Will the baby be alright?
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Will I have one of mine?
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Can I handle it even if I do?
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Its said that my mind
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Is not fit, or so they said, to carry a child
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I guess Ill be fine
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[Verse 4]
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It wasnt my idea, the cocktail of things that twists neurons inside
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But without them, Id die
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They say theres irony in the music, its a tragedy, I
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See nothing Greek in it
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Give me a mausoleum in Rhode Island with Dad, Grandma, Grandpa, and Dave
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Who hung himself real high
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In the National Park sky, its a shame and Im crying right now
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To get to you, save you, if I take my life
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Find your astral body, put it into my arms
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Give you two seconds to cry
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Take you home, I, Ill give you a blanket
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Your spirit can sit and watch TV by my side
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‘Cause, baby, I
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Ran through a time when I felt you were doing it
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[Verse 5]
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I couldnt handle it, I was in Monaco
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I couldnt hear what they said on the telephone
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I had to sing for the prince in two hours
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Sat in the shower
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Gave myself two seconds to cry
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Its a shame that we die
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[Verse 6]
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When I was fifteen, naked, next-door neighbors did a drive-by
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Pulled me up by my waist, long hair to the beach side
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I wanted to go out like you, swim with the fishes
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That he caught on Rhode Island beaches
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But, sometimes, its just not your time
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[Verse 7]
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Caroline, what kind of mother was she to say Id end up in institutions?
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All I wanted to do was kiss Aaron Greene and sit by
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The lake, twisting lime into the drinks that they made
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Have a babe at sixteen in the town I was born in, and die
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[Verse 8]
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Aaron ended up dead and not me
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What the fucks wrong in your head to send me away, never to come back?
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Exotic places and people dont take the place of being your child
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I give myself two seconds to cry
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[Verse 9]
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Let it crash over me
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Like the waves in the sea
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Call me Aphrodite, as they bow down to me
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[Verse 10]
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Sunbather, moon chaser, queen of empathy
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I give myself two seconds to breathe
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And go back to being a serene queen
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I just needed two seconds to be me
