[Verse 1] ~#**************#~ Dear God, please ~#**************#~ Hear me out, I know its been a couple years ~#**************#~ Since Ive reached ~#**************#~ Out and said hello, I bet Youre wondering ~#**************#~ Why I keep ~#**************#~ Obsessing on and stressin all the little things ~#**************#~ When I should be ~#**************#~ Living life and soaking up the memories ~#**************#~ I know Ive been selfish, I have ~#**************#~ No excuse to give You, its true ~#**************#~ Hanging by a threads how I live ~#**************#~ I dont know why, but I feel more comfortable ~#**************#~ [Chorus] ~#**************#~ Livin in my agony ~#**************#~ Watchin my self-esteem ~#**************#~ Go up in flames, acting like I dont ~#**************#~ Care what anyone else thinks ~#**************#~ When I know truthfully ~#**************#~ That thats the furthest thing from how I ~#**************#~ Feel, but Im too proud to open up and ask ya ~#**************#~ To pick me up and pull me out this hole Im trapped in ~#**************#~ The truth is I need help, but I just cant imagine ~#**************#~ Who Id be if I was happy ~#**************#~ [Verse 2] ~#**************#~ Yeah, been this way so long ~#**************#~ It feels like somethins off when Im not depressed ~#**************#~ I got some issues that I wont address ~#**************#~ I got some baggage I aint opened yet ~#**************#~ I got some demons I should put to rest ~#**************#~ I got some traumas that I cant forget ~#**************#~ I got some phone calls I been avoidin ~#**************#~ Some family members I dont really connect with ~#**************#~ Some things I said I wish I woulda not let slip ~#**************#~ Some hurtful words that never shoulda left my lips ~#**************#~ Some bridges burned Im not ready to rebuild yet ~#**************#~ Some insecurities I havent dealt with, yes ~#**************#~ Ill be the first to admit that Im a lonely soul ~#**************#~ And the last to admit I need a hand to hold ~#**************#~ Losin hope, headed down a dangerous road ~#**************#~ Strange, I know, but I feel most at home when Im ~#**************#~ [Chorus] ~#**************#~ Livin in my agony ~#**************#~ Watchin my self-esteem ~#**************#~ Go up in flames, acting like I dont ~#**************#~ Care what anyone else thinks ~#**************#~ When I know truthfully ~#**************#~ That thats the furthest thing from how I ~#**************#~ Feel, but Im too proud to open up and ask ya ~#**************#~ To pick me up and pull me out this hole Im trapped in ~#**************#~ The truth is I need help, but I just cant imagine ~#**************#~ Who Id be if I was happy ~#**************#~ [Bridge] ~#**************#~ Dont know whats around the bend ~#**************#~ Dont know what my future is ~#**************#~ But I cant keep on livin in— ~#**************#~ [Chorus] ~#**************#~ Livin in my agony ~#**************#~ Watchin my self-esteem ~#**************#~ Go up in flames, acting like I dont ~#**************#~ Care what anyone else thinks ~#**************#~ When I know truthfully ~#**************#~ That thats the furthest thing from how I ~#**************#~ Feel, but Im too proud to open up and ask ya ~#**************#~ To pick me up and pull me out this hole Im trapped in ~#**************#~ The truth is I need help, but I just cant imagine ~#**************#~ Who Id be if I was happy ~#**************#~ [Outro] ~#**************#~ (Oh, oh, oh) ~#**************#~ (Oh, oh, oh) If I was happy ~#**************#~ (Oh, oh, oh) ~#**************#~ (Oh, oh, oh) If I was happy