[Intro: Tech N9ne]
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This is a piece that I wrote
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When I was on some ole, low down down low feelin, depressed shit
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Yknow what Im sizzlin?
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It contains, heh, three suicide letters to my peeps
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Well actually uh two suicide letters
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Yknow what Im sizzlin?
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I wrote it in rhyme form
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But Im gonna try to read it to the best of my ability
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Yknow what Im sizzlin?
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So bear with me
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Listen to the lyrics, check it out..
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[Verse 1: Tech N9ne]
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Picture me in that casket, blasted
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Never nobody knew how long the pain lasted
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Keep my eyes tight Im frightened
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But I fights like Tyson
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When playin this game of life Im losin, longin to be enlightened
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Absorb my mind state
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Reduce the crime rate and take me out
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When runnin toward the Lord I seen em fake me out
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Shook me so from church I played hookie
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Listen to the words of a brotha
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The sick stutter
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So ya better better get the get the bags ready
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Comin killa killa like Scagnetti
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My brains contaminated, hella rotten
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It wasnt me that killed you (Who was it, what was it)
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The affects of the mildew, my brains wilted
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In my eyes the world is a bit tilted
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Lord take me away before somebody else get killed, bloods spills seriously
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This is the letter to my homies Ill be missin
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God told me to behold a pale horse but I didnt listen
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Its hard mane, my life is scarred mane
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Im losin my mind so now its time, sincerely signed N9ne
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[Chorus: Nichia Cayson & Tech N9ne]
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(I just wanna die)
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I dont wanna wake up
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I dont wanna cause thats the way
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That I feel Im barely hangin on
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(I just wanna die)
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I dont wanna wake up
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I dont wanna wake up cause thats the way
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It has to be
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[Interlude: Tech N9ne]
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(Man, this is to my wife, check it out)
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[Verse 2: Tech N9ne]
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I made your life a livin hell with my infidelity
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Remember you telling me all I gave a damn about is weed, stems and melodies
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Remember ya spent thirty minutes in the hospital parking lot crying
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When the blood test read the baby of another woman was mine, 99.99
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Shouldve left long time ago like Mary J. say
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Just let it go like Ray J, I know your momma heard you yelling May Day
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Spent my life tryna R A to the P
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You were sick of me always being B to the R O K to the E, there was nothing else left for me
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I was a bum but you still wanted some through the rain, snow, and thunder
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Foul-ups, bleeps and blunders but no man shall tear a sunder is what you said
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Shoulda put multi bullets in my head
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When you found that Evil Instinct was a song
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But the events actually went on, this is the letter
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To my homie, my friend who put up with me for 8
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So now to take me really quicklys my fate
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Im sorry for making it hard, I know you’re scarred, Im losin my mind
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So now its time, sincerely signed N9ne
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[Chorus: Nichia Cayson & Tech N9ne]
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(I just wanna die)
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I dont wanna wake up
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I dont wanna cause thats the way
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That I feel Im barely hangin on
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(I just wanna die)
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I dont wanna wake up
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I dont wanna wake up cause thats the way
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It has to be
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[Verse 3: Tech N9ne]
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I love yall, the dynamic duo, my babies
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It aint your fault that your daddies crazy
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Donny I miss you drummin like me, one day youll be rulin
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Lilly I miss you in my face yellin “Daddy what ya dooyin?”
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You two are the reason why Im still standin today
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But Im sixteen-hundred miles away
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And it gets my heart sinkin
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When I start thinkin bout you babies, I heavily start drinkin on a daily
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Puffin, I see in my heart I gots to toughin
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Cant see me leavin my angels with nothin, so I keep bustin
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Use my pain for you two I gotta come up in the game
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Fly planes to an island so one day you can do the same with yours
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Love you galore and I aint playin
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Makin me put an end to the suicidal mindstate sayin
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[Chorus: Tech N9ne]
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(I just wanna die)
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I dont wanna wake up
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I dont wanna cause thats the way
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That I feel Im barely hangin on
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(I just wanna die)
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I dont wanna wake up
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I dont wanna wake up cause thats the way
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It has to be
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[Over-Chorus: Tech N9ne]
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Ya, thats what a nigga was on yknow what Im sizzlin? Sh..
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But as you can tell
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Like I said, I cant leave my angels with nothin
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So I gotta keep bustin, yknow what Im sizzlin?
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Suicide aint my thang
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Never ever gonna be my thang when I know I got my love
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[Outro: Tech N9ne]
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So we just gon sit back
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Write these rhymes, make these mills
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And chill
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Don Juan
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Tech N9ne
