[Intro]
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(Ayy, who that? John Gotitt)
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(How many times did I cross your mind?)
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(Or am I just a memory)
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I tried giving up
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When times was hard, life was rough, I tried giving up
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Yeah, yeah, yeah, huh, huh
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[Chorus]
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When times was hard, life was rough, I tried giving up (I tried giving up)
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Ayy, like, like, “Maybe I wasnt meant for much” (I wasnt meant for much)
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I miss big bruh so much sometimes, I wish I went with him (I wish I went with him)
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Uh, like, like, “Dont worry, here I come” (Dont worry, here I come)
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Im popping meds, laying in bed, tryna wake up dead (Im tryna wake up dead)
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Instead I wake up aching, staring at my ceiling fan (Im staring at my ceiling fan)
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Voice in my head said, “Quit playing and just finish it” (Ayy, boy, quit playin)
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One to the head if you wanna end this shit
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Lets just get it finished with (Lets just get it finished with)
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[Verse]
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When my lil cousin shot hisself, my auntie found his body (My auntie found him)
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I still be fighting that urge inside me, I need counseling probably
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But who gon listen to all this different shit you know I been into?
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I can tell you somethinll make you sick that youll swear isnt true (Yeah, sick)
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Have you ever dreamed you couldnt see but voices visit you?
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And tell you youll be rich by twenty-six if you survive that boom (Survive that shots)
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Hospital views, hard to get you stable, its so many goons
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Bright lights get dark like closing tunes, the reapers in the room
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Grim said hell take me far away soon as I tell em to
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Then I felt Reek shake me, “Gee, you staying, we got shit to do”
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I wanted to go, but you told me, “No”, Im glad I heard you spoke
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Live or die, decide cause both is painful, either way it goes
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[Chorus]
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When times was hard, life was rough, I tried giving up (I tried giving up)
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Ayy, like, like, “Maybe I wasnt meant for much” (I wasnt meant for much)
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I miss big bruh so much sometimes, I wish I went with him (I wish I went with him)
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Uh, like, like, “Dont worry, here I come” (Dont worry, here I come)
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Im popping meds, laying in bed, tryna wake up dead (Im tryna wake up dead)
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Instead I wake up aching, staring at my ceiling fan (Im staring at my ceiling fan)
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Voice in my head said, “Quit playing and just finish it” (Ayy, boy, quit playin)
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One to the head if you wanna end this shit
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Lets just get it finished with (Lets just get it finished with)
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[Outro]
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Ayy, yeah, magic, you know?
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I aint mad at you
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You feel me, I, I salute your bravery, for real
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Sometimes I wish I was as brave as you
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Whether you meant it or not
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You got away from this motherfucker
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Mm, Ima make em see it though, ‘fore I go
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(How many times did I cross your mind?)
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(Or am I just a memory)
