[Chorus]
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I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
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I forgot how to be myself
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I just really miss myself
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I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself (Yeah)
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I forgot how to be myself (Uh)
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I just really miss myself (Somebody asked me, yeah)
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[Verse 1]
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Somebody asked me, “What do you have outside of music that really makes you happy?”
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I thought about it and I aint have no answer
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I started this shit ten years ago, it was just me and my manager
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On the road, doin any shows, we was fillin up this calendar
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But Mattys married now and its a whole ‘nothеr chapter
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While Im in Gerryland, Im still hеre wildin as a bachelor
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Woke up next to a stranger, whats her name? I had to ask her
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She prolly thinks I got it all, but its pain behind this laughter
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Hungover the mornin after, close my drapes, make it blackout
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Tryna put the pieces together from last night when I blacked out
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On LSD, had a convo with my brother, it brought a lot up
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See I dont ever take the uniform off, and now Im clocked out
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[Chorus]
~#**************#~
I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
~#**************#~
I forgot how to be myself
~#**************#~
I just really miss myself
~#**************#~
I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
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I forgot how to be myself, yeah
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I just really miss myself (Yeah)
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[Verse 2]
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Comin down in my room all alone listenin to Mac
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Last time he text me, I was fucked up, forgot I didnt hit him back
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Wish I could have spoken up, man, I just want my brother back
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But I mean, who am I to talk, bro? Im still livin like that
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Theyll never understand what its like to be a artist
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Make some shit I dont feel, yes men tell me its the hardest
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They just wanna keep their jobs, stay on my good side, keep their office
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Keep us on the road, and no commission or the profits
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Now everything is peachy, and yeah, I feel Avicii
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Fifty thousand watchin me, but I swear dont nobody see me
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But its rich people problems, its stamps all in my passport
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My mama tellin me that, “This is everything you asked for”
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What you want?
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[Chorus]
~#**************#~
I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
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I forgot how to be myself (How to be myself)
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I just really miss myself (Great mind, great mind)
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I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
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I forgot how to be myself, yeah
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I just really miss myself
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[Verse 3]
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My anxiety increases the higher that I climb
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I thought this shit would get easier, easier with time
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Im happy in my mind, but at least I tell myself that
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Guess Im damaged goods, I cannot help that
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Drugs take the edge off, hide inside my comfort zone
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Different girl every night, but worry Ima die alone
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Me against the world, cant decide now what side Im on
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Miss my family but act like I cant even dial a phone
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Cheated on my girl, I felt like shit, and then I sped off
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Crept in the crib quiet, shower, took my YSL off
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She woke up, grab my dick, I couldnt help it, had to get off
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And if she gave me head, felt like I wanna blow my head off
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Think everybody cheats, everybody will
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Everybody leaves, but these drugs never will
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I know that sounds fucked up, but in the end, its real
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‘Til Im lost on a bender askin myself can I chill
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This scale here will measure, five hundred pounds of pressure
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The only thing to alleviate it is a stash in the dresser
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Illuminate my ugly, you really sure you love me?
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You deserve to know the truth, decide now what you think of me
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[Chorus]
~#**************#~
I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
~#**************#~
I forgot how to be myself
~#**************#~
I just really miss myself
~#**************#~
I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
~#**************#~
I forgot how to be myself, yeah
~#**************#~
I just really miss myself
